When Kim asked for volunteers to appear on her blog, I immediately responded with Katniss Everdeen’s response, “I volunteer as tribute!” I had no clue what I wanted to write. She left it wide open.
I have been writing for most of my life, with long stretches between. I wrote in times of stress or when something prayed on my mind. When I was 29, I was attacked by a serial rapist. One of 37 women, a special sorority, that he attacked. That was in 1994, in 2004 they finally caught him, the day after he raped the last of us. I found out when one of my coworkers told me that he had been caught, I freaked out. It was almost as if he had raped me the day before.
I tail-spinned into a dark abyss, panic clutching at me. My coworkers didn’t understand why I was sobbing uncontrollably, until I was able to say, “But now I have to face him!” I didn’t know if I would have the courage to do so. But when I first saw him on TV, he acted like he owned the courtroom. Furious, I knew then I could do it. I also realized that I had not healed, I had only formed a scab over the wound. His poison still left inside. Unseen, yet still there after ten years.
We had a rollercoaster for a few weeks. Would he do the right thing, save us from testifying? Firing his first attorney, the court appointed the former boss of a coworker. She told me how good he was, and how it was a good thing…as when he was convicted, there would be no appeal.
This lawyer had half of our cases dismissed, as it was passed the Statute of Limitations. When I was called in to speak with the prosecutor for the first time, I asked “All I want to know is if I’m ‘in’ ?” He said that I was. “Good I can be a voice for those who cannot.”
Thankfully, his mother stepped in and begged him to plead guilty, he agreed. I was able to give an “Impact Statement.” One of the few who read their own. With a crackling voice and trembling knees, I was filmed as I did mine, and part of my poem “The Cell,” was published in the local paper.
The poem talked about the aftermath of what he had put me through; how he had taken my innocence at the “…tip of a knife.” It ended with saying that now he would know how it felt to be in the cell…I was free.
Writing it was the second most terrifying thing that happened. Once it was over, I finally felt as if that poison was pouring out of the wound. Peace and joy came over me, and I celebrated with my friends. They had stood beside me, and my parents as I was facing him in that courtroom. I had finally healed.
The power of ink and a page (or fonts on a computer screen), cannot be minimized. Seeing what comes out onto that page; giving it form and coherent (or incoherent) thought, gives a connection to a time or place. A record or snippet of a life that can be a release of sorts. Writing can be a or to come to terms with painful parts of a life. A way to find that peace, to move on, hopefully stronger for having done so.
Bio and Links
L. Anne Wooley is a native of Columbus Ohio, where she still resides with her brother, and her cat Skylar. She has also lived in such exotic locales as Denver CO, Los Angeles, CA and Nashville tN. She mostly writes in the Urban Fantasy Genre, but has written in pretty much all forms of writing. She’s an admin in multiple groups, an editor and a mentor for other writers. She’s appeared in Fandom Universe, With Painted Words and in numerous charity anthologies.
She can be found at these various places:
Amazon Author Page https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B01M61BBLG
Goodreads Author Page https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/15853795.L_Anne_Wooley
Writers Blog http://velvetdelenn.blogspot.com/
YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCO5ZGzQiOZ__tlnE5RhOiVQ
Anthologies: As L. Anne Wooley
Lupus Animus (for Artisan Rarebreeds) Can be found on Amazon.
The Longest Night Watch Vol. 2 (Vol. 3 coming soon; for Alzheimers research and in honor of Sir Terry Pratchett)
With Painted Words: August 2012 “Resting.”
Blog: That Writer Chick
She also writes fiction under Lorna Woulfe
Warps in the Tapestry:
Cracks in the Tapestry:
42 and Beyond (No longer available)